Empire!

Big day today!Going to empire to stay over. Woke up earlier than usual to pack my clothings. It was a rainy day..that morning but luckily it pass by quickly. About 12 plus went to pick Syeu up to meet my cousin. He's treating us escapade.SUSHI that i deSire!hahaha! We ate till 1+ when gary msg us to buy drinks to bring to empire. So after lunch we 3 went to buy drinks and also some food which is for tomorrow's bbq! When we left Gadong it was 230 already We're like super late and everyone is at empire waiting. But i hafta get memory card from my cousin where i made a wrong turn ahha! so ended up reaching empire at 3. Upon reaching there. Me and syeu got lost! We didn't know where East atrium is.hahah SO lame! Must remember not to take the FIRST LIFT! Reaching our door step.we swapped the card but COULDN'T OPEN the door! STupiak door rosak terpulang!

Ymei then opened the door. Then we just got to knw that there's only a few of us there and the rest are not coming...We all then started talking and laughing for quite sometime till they decided to go to the pool...to swim..saddie.. I din't wanna change at first cuz i so paiseh!!BUt finally did change..Ymei was the first to change wrapped around with that blue clothing. I think she's excited.haha!WE all then jumped into the pool and took pictures. I dunno how to swim so i stayed on the shallow side. All of them went off to the deeper pool and other side except for johnson who stayed behind with me and tell me his stories. It was until evening that they came back to the shallow side.hahah! stupiak!Json has to leave at that time so i left with him back to our room. The rest continued in the pool. Terry came along when me and json was back in our room then he left to the pool to find the others while i bath. After awhile everyone came back..and took turns bathing.

NIght timeee... we're all hungry! No one decided where to eat at first until i forgot who decided ahah ended up at jerudong park food court. After eating went back hotel and talk for awhile and the session began... Drinking... Json bought Sisha if that's what u call. He started to burn the coal and stuffs while Chien get ready with the glasses ,wine and beer. Terry was the mastermidn there ahha cuz he know's all the drinking game. The sisha din really work tho. We then started playing the card game where u hafta put on ur forehead and after that to the no saying I ME YOU DRINK and POINT game. I feel for it alot of times but worse is Cass haha! She turned super red cuz she always drink. The funniest is when gary answered the phone cuz he cant say I and you and others. SO he has to tell his fren over the phone that Gary Duno Gary say..bla bla..without using I ME YOu stuffs. ahha which was very funny.hahah!

Becuz we laugh and talk loud the people staying on top of us asked us to keep our voices down so we went into the room to continue. Cass din play cuz she's really red already i din play too cuz my stomach is getting a lil weird. They all played on with 007 BAng! Wa! thing. It was so funny too! The others came and join us from the other room to play. i then began feeling sleepy and i did kinda doze off awhile till i heard noises again then i woke up. They are still playing but by then my stomach is getting uncomfy. I went to the toilet few times but nothing came out.. Till after a long time i forced myself to vomit.. My dinner came out... After drinking everyone started talking outside the balcony. SOme in the room too. I spent most of the time in the room cuz i cant stand the smoke smell..makes my stomach worse. SO in the room ther's ymei gay and me and johnson sleeping. Stupid ymei always wanna show me weird stuffs! And super MANJA like no one else. But actually i'm very happy to see them cuddle each other and stuffs. Happy for them!

It's already 4 and we're still awake. Gay wanted to sleep but ymei keeps on talking haha so he din really sleep.Ohh b4 that around 2. we all decided to walk at the beach but not even halfway thru it..Chien stepped on Syeu's toe and she started bleeding and it hurts alot. So we all went back in to see how she was doing and said it was a sign not to go out this time. So we all stayed in our room and continue chatting. Almost 530 the sky starting to turn dark blue.. we wanted to watch sunrise but apparently it was raining.. and we're dead tired. So in the end we did sleep..but not Chien and Ted...

Continuation of cutie

Stupiak Billy....last minute cancel dun wana go out...then met him online..then OO SI MIA wanna go out again. Before i left i saw my mum sitting there alone watching tv...in the car i started thinking and feeling sad. By the time i reach Syeu's house i actually wanna cry.haha but i din. SUcked it back. Today's terrible hahaha we went to Gadong(town) to this restaurant malay one and sat there... we 4 werre looking at the menu and i saw SAN SUAN(the three sour drink) but the menu it spelled SUN SWARM. And i pointed to my cousin. WE started busting out loud laughing there like crazy.hahaha! my two other frens were just looking at us hahaha but after that we told them what we saw and they started laughing too....

After that..my cuz suggest maybe we should eat steamboat instead. we discuss for awhile and we ended up flipping the coin.haha the coin says to leave and go for steam boat..hahah we just came in and sat without ordering anything( in fact asking the waitress to come back later) but laughing at the menu. We just walk out straight. Hahaha we all so paiseh!!!! hahaha after that stupiak cuz park duno how...then we went to somewhere near my place to eat the steamboat.We all sat already and ordered our drink and also steamboat for 2 person.. After the waitress went off..i saw the sign steamboat on the fridge where all the dishes of steamboat was displayed. So i ask my cousin to go and see with me...we went....Hahaha the food wasnt that fresh and we discuss about the fishball the fishcake.Seems not fresh. Then we quickly decided maybe we don't eat here!!! Cause the food lousy maybe we should go to SEAFOOD centre which is 200m or so away. The waitress who came to our table for our orders were near by us. then we quickly decide tell her.. STEamboat ini cancel ah?!Then we went into the counter but saw the 2 drinks already ready so no choice we hafta buy the 2 drinks..we ta pao...WE 2 then say minta maaaf ah (sorry) the waitress was nice and smiled and say its ok.and said thank u too!

Me an my cousin then went to the table where we actually sat took our keys and wallet and left the table.hahaha my 2 fren sitting next to each other were blur.haha cuz we din tell them and we just walk off laughing!!!hahahaha! Syin wanan stand up but sat down like DILEMMA duno what to do .hahaha Both syeu and syin look at each other thought we prank them.haha BUt we walk further haha luckily for them the waitress went to them and said cancel.hahaha If not i think me and my cousin laugh until faint!!!Funny tonight..hahahahaha!Finally we're at SEAFOOD center...and ordered..but then..... wahhhh suddenly my cousin's fren came then terus ask can i sit down. He bo pien must say sit down lo... then we kinda went quiet...cuz it was arkward. My cousin's bro came along later and sat down...it was ok cuz at least we all knew him. After awhile its really arkward and i asked my cousin,billy wanna see fish then he agreed cuz he knew i got something to say to him. When we went there we discuss how to make that guy go away! so decided to ask his bro but to no avail..his bro(my cousin's bro) went to another table to seat but his fren stayed saying i'm having fun here.

Puki!hahaha!Syeu keep on talking to him and i kick her leg under the table from a distance.hahah! then she decided to go toilet and i acompanied her. SHE tricky ah! didn't wanna go toilet! know i wanan discuss with her.hahah! then we think how to drive him away again. Say maybe if we stay at the toilet long he will go away..but in the end he didnt..Then come Syin going toilet and i accompany again..then we talk abt him again.hahahaha! Syeu joined us after that. Ooo my fly was open just now ahahah! syeu told me then i zip! hahaha! We thought 3 of us coming to toilet leaving him alone with my couz will drive him off buit it didn't..so we kinda gave up and just ate but without that fun. But lucikily after awhile he went home..and we had stupid fun again!!We talked and laff. That syeu stupiak one keep on adding mee and other dish to each of our bowl.hahaha! Then at last syin's egg not too cook haha then she ABANDONED her egg!hahaha! STupiak billy's table was a mess worse than a kid eating!next time his son wah piang i dun dare imagine when he eats.hahaha!

Met up with Gary and CHien all of us talk awhile..After that we went home....hahaha STupid night! we all are going to gain weight!!!!

Cutie

Today didn't feel like waking up...but was forced to! Cause i need to go to Aus HIgh Comm ask abt my passport. Nothing new today except...meeting piggy~!Hahaha seems weird when we're here we can play and talk crazy but when we're in melbourne we're not like tat. haha I guess home is always best to hang out and play. Meet up with another pig and her sai kang.hahah~ Was kinda happy today....Going out tonight again with Syeu Syin and Bill. Forever playing! Play until stress! Kinda don't feel like going back Aus at this moment. Cuz it seems so fun here with everyone around...but my time is short here have to go back this sunday.. I have to wait till November till i can play again...Looking so forward to it. Melb a boring disasterous place. But i'm going to put some effort so i'm going to be happy. hahah!

Pressured...

Been a long while since i've even touch on blog...Hahaha but the most hilarious thing is now i'm back here and the first thing i'm going to write about is not too much of a happy thing...

Discovered something on someone's handphone yesterday. Things that i didn't want to see... It had me stunned for awhile. I didn't know who i could tell i didn't know what i should do and how to deal with it.... But i did told my fren and my cousin. Luckily my cousin bought me out to play so at that moment at least my heart was at ease. But in the car when it turn silence..i couldn't make myself smile... I'm someone who laugh non-stop with my cousin 24 hrs if i'm ever with him. But yesterday i found myself hard to smile,the usual me..

When i got back home bunk on my bed,i started thinking alot of what might happen when i'm gone(back to Aus)..i started having some tears. When i woke up today i started thinking again.. but this time my heart doesn't feel anything anymore.. Am i taking it too lightly or am i unconciously neglecting it?I don't know...Hahaha weird eh?

When my grandpa pass away i didn't feel anything too maybe cause i wasn't close to him and i'm in AUs that time..but when i came back (brunei) and saw the pictures of all my cousin,aunts and uncles crying i wanted to cry. SOmeone back then asked me why i don't feel anything. I don't know how to answer. And today that person asked me something like tat but not exactly. Indirectly like i'm ok nothing wrong... At that moment i starting thinking what's wrong with me? Am i unhappy or not bothered or anything. Though i'm scared but now my heart is at ease. Am i keeping all this into myself or maybe i'm just used to all this heartache i once had bottled inside me that made me not bothered?I started feeling pressured. Am i really suppose to feel something? Am i being cold hearted already?I'm scared what's going to happen when i'm gone and i'm scared of myself.Hahaha stupid...

I hate to pretend i don't know anything right now. Wonder why i am fated to see that someone's message. I thought for the first time, I'm happy coming home nothing that makes me think alot and even shed a tear. But in the end..i was wrong. Each time coming back home.. there's bound to have something that comes up making me unhappy. Why?I became paranoid..since young ppl told me that when a person's palm has lots of lines..it means that that person will have many hardships. I began believing its true thought at times i try not to. But when i look at my own hands..its sometimes just hard to not believe..I think i will go on a plan.. a plan which i might not want to see but i want truth before my eyes...