Mum

Couple nights ago i received this song called Qin Ai De Ma ma.. WHen i listen to it especially the lyrics.. i Started crying and crying. It's nice and meaningful and it keeps on repeating... Feel like those are the words that i carry in my heart but never did dare to speak it out. I guess i'm timid when it comes to my family expressing all my emotions; anger, hapiness,sadness..everything. I don't know why i'm so reserved towards them. But when it's a friend i could just tell right away.

Anyway.. i watch Aladdin few nights ago too and there's this deleted scene and song. The title is called ProuD of Your Boy... Just like qin ai de mama song.. it touched me. ANd again those are just the words i would just wanan voice out to my mum. But never did have the guts to. I always do blame it on the chinese tradition that we don't exactly express our feelings but i guess it's my own choice.. Feel alil sucky abt this but still it never give me that guts to. There's once in KL that my friend snatched my phone and actually typed something nice to my mum! I feel so weird after she press SENT...

I feel sometimes a failure being a daughter. Not good at anything..